After another long absence I have returned to wordpress. No apologies this time. I just wasn’t ready til now. I’ve realized that I don’t have a vision for this blog. Anyone have any ideas? I know that I don’t want to be tied down to race issues. I know that I don’t want it to be a dumping ground for the ideas I end up editing out of videos. Maybe I shouldn’t be calling it mulatto diaries….
Well, it’s been 2009 for one week now. It was off to kind of a rough start for me. Apparently I threw away my December paycheck. I discovered this on New Year’s Eve and have been pretty concerned and very upset with myself since then. Talk about irresponsible! Or just a scatterbrained holiday preparation stress kind of mistake. Damn! I actually can’t believe I’m even writing that on here. The beginnings of the year are always a bit stressful for me financially it seems. As a freelancer I never know what a new year will bring in terms of work (that actually pays the bills). So to have thrown this check away ( I really think that’s what happened) just adds a bit more worry. My motto for 2009, tho, is “Faith, not Fear!” They really cannot share the same space in I have learned. So I’m trying to look at this as a test of my faith and a test of my fear. I’m also going to be focusing on gratitude and being good to myself. And seeing the glass as full! Not even half full. I’m a positive person, but I’ve noticed that I focus on lack a lot. More than one roommate I’ve had over the years has marveled at how I always think there’s not enough of something (usually in the fridge i.e. milk, oj, butter) and rush to replace said item before it runs out. It’s like “There’s plenty of milk, Tiff. You just don’t know it.” What else is there plenty of yet the plethora escapes me, I wonder…
Sorry about the check. Man I hate that! I did it once with a large check and walmart gift cards we got for Christmas.
Did you ask them to place a stop payment on that check and issue you another one? It’s a pain, but not as painful as not getting paid.
Wow. Very unfortunate for you to have gone through that on New Years Eve. I can tell that you pretty much have everything under control now, thank God. I like your new motto for 2009: “Faith not Fear.” You have no idea how much I really needed to read that today.Today was a really disappointing day for me. However, my head is still up and I will continue to keep pressing on. Tomorrow is another day and I still have the whole year ahead of me!
hey tami. glad your head is still up after a rough day. i’m glad you got what you needed to hear from here!! unfortunately i don’t have the check thing under control. i’m waiting, waiting, waiting to hear from “accounting” if it was cashed. if not they’ll put a stop payment and re-issue it. faith, not fear. faith, not fear. faith, not fear….
hope your today is great!
hi amy! i’m sorry that you can relate, but thank you for sharing that. i’m feeling like i must be absolutely crazy and so irresponsible to have done that. i’ve asked for the stop payment/reissue. i have a “middle man” to go through tho and am not sure of the status of the situation. argh!
Goodness (sighs). Must apologize for jumping to conclusions. Your spirits appear to be very much intact. Everything will work out for the better. Keep us posted. Faith,not fear!
Hey Tiff,
Were you able to get the check situation resolved? I once went through something like that in college. I almost was evicted from my apartment because of it, and I was missing classes in order to try and deal with it. It eventually worked out and it was good that I had some understanding professors. In particular the one from Japan was the one that was most understanding. There goes that Japan connection again.
I hope it all works out for you.